kevyn: (Default)
( Aug. 30th, 2008 04:23 pm)
So, before I do anything else, I think it's time for me to take a moment and stop and express my deep appreciation for everyone who has helped me get to where I am now in my education.
Click for a long list of thank yous )
kevyn: (buccaneer boots)
( May. 21st, 2008 06:30 pm)
I sat in class today, trying to take notes, but my mind kept wandering back to Dylan.

I miss him so.

I want him. I NEED him.

But he doesn't want me.

I don't want to be a fool, throwing myself after someone who cannot truly appreciate what I have to offer.

That would be pathetic.

I suppose I should remember the old poem, about if you love someone, set them free. If they come back to you, they're yours. If not, they never were.

Dylan loves me too much to cut me free. He'd never abandon me because of who I am inside.

This relationship isn't over. Mark my words.
I am so grateful for Dylan taking me to the ER this evening, and sitting there with me for almost 5 hours as they hooked me up to an EKG, took X-rays, took blood work, urine samples, and blowing into a peak flow metre.

So. I have Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease (COPD). In other words, I've fucked up my lungs. From chain smoking smoking rubber bullets for 20+ years (I started at age 18, in order to impress a guy.)

It's not entirely reversible. I'm only 40, and it's not severe yet, so some of the damage can be undone (by quitting smoking!). But it will never fully go away. I'll always be short of breath.

I have an inhaler now, and I need to lose some weight, fairly rapidly to gain some of my lung capacity back, which was being pushed aside by the fat. Hopefully, the lithium was the cause of the massive weight gain that triggered all this, so I should start dropping again.

That is all.
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( Apr. 11th, 2008 09:00 am)

Toilet Incense
Originally uploaded by kevynjacobs
Here's a neat trick my Captain showed me this week:
How to burn incense sticks when you don't have a incense stick holder -- just put it on the toilet, clamping the non-burning end of the stick between the toilet seat and the bowl! Isn't that clever?
The stick burns all the way, dropping ashes into the water as it goes. If anything goes wrong, the burning stick will fall into the water, and go out. And when the stick is finished burning, just lift the seat, and the remainder of the burned stick falls into the toilet. Flush, and you're all cleaned up! Wow!
Note: Dr. Perry gave us the following assignment, to write a letter to her, telling her about ourselves and what we want out of the class.
Click to view letter )
kevyn: (Default)
( Mar. 29th, 2008 09:37 am)
It's snowing here, big, heavy clumps (not flakes, clumps) of wet snow that are accumulating rapidly. Several cm in just the past 3 hours - when I went out on the porch at 06:30 to have a smoke, it was raining and green outside. I went back to bed, snuggling up under the covers with my Captain.

Two and a half hours later, everything is white, and it's still coming down fast and hard. No way I am making it to Radical Faerie Coffee today. Good thing I'm inside, warm, with my Captain!
Forty years ago today, on March 23, 1968 at 15:15 Central Time at Stormont Vail Hospital in Topeka, Kansas, I came into the world.

And the world's never been the same since.

Actually, I'm surprised I made it this far. I never expected to see 30, much less 40. But, every day I get out of bed, and say, "OK, I'm still alive," and keep going. Seems to be working!

For my birthday, the Captain took me to the Chuckanut Manor Bed & Breakfast out on Chuckanut Drive, over in Skagit County last weekend. It was wonderful. We sat on the balcony and looked out over the water (which you can see in the photo), ate yummy food, drank and smoked a lot, and had a blast in the Jacuzzi hot tub. It was *the best* birthday I ever had, bar none, and I have the Captain to thank for it.

He took the photo at right of me at the B&B, holding the pink umbrella he gave me for Valentine's Day.

For lunch today, he took me to my favourite Asian buffet. Yum!

What a great birthday!
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( Mar. 10th, 2008 09:50 am)
We're down to the last week before finals, and that means quarter projects are coming due. Fortunately, I only have one actual final (which I can take at home on the computer), but two portfolios and a poster presentation I have to turn in as well. And, of course, they're not done yet because I procrastinate like crazy.

I'm going to be OK, though. The Captain has been a real blessing through this. I actually get more homework done when I am at his place than when I am home by myself -- he won't let me slack off and go into la la land, cracking the whip on me to finish my stuff before playtime. It's actually working. He's like the disciplinarian I never had growing up.

He talked to my mother last week, and apparently Mom told him "Kevyn isn't very good at getting things done on his own." Too true, Mom, I just didn't know you had noticed! It seems I made the right choice in seeking out a captain to catch my wild wind in his sails.

Still, in the next 8 days, I have to get the following done:

JOUR 340 History of Mass Media:
  • 1 annotated bibliography (50% done)
  • 1 poster presentation on "Rosie the Riveter" in the media (40% done)
  • 1 textbook to finish reading (80% done)
ENG 351 Fiction Writing:
  • 3 stories to edit (0% done)
  • 1 "stranger comes to town 2-4 page story to finish (50% done)
  • 1 Conflict only through setting 2-4 page short story (0% done)
  • 1 Character voice through dialogue 2-4 page shot story (0% done)
  • 1 novel (Cloud Atlas) to finish reading (40% done)
  • 1 2-4 page short story continuing a thread in Cloud Atlas (0% done)
  • 1 unknown Cloud Atlas assignment that he hasn't given us yet, but will probably give us on Tuesday or Thursday
  • 1 major re-write of my "Tigers are Predators" story (10% done, and this will mostly write itself)
  • ...and all of this ENG 351 work will need to be compiled into a portfolio due a week from Tuesday.
ENG 462 Grant Writing:
  • 4 pages of boilerplate grant materials for our project. Fortunately, because of circumstances beyond our control, the actual grant itself isn't going to be written, but we still have to present the project with a mess of grant materials for them to use going forward.


It's gonna be a busy busy week. And, I still need to register for classes for spring!
Wow... has it already been two months?

Captain Dylan and I celebrated our two-month anniversary by going to Radical Faerie coffee this morning. We had a nice time, and Saturday mornings at Faerie coffee continue to be the social highlight of my week, enjoying the company of my friends.

In the late afternoon, I took Dylan to the Pickford Theater to see a matinee showing of Persepolis, a fascinating animated movie that tells the coming of age story of a secular Iranian girl and her family, coping with the events of the Iranian Revolution, and her own inability to conform to the new conservative Islamist standards that are imposed upon her. A stunningly beautiful film, it offers a lot of insight into the Iranian people and culture. I highly recommend it.

Now we're back at the Captain's place, and I am working on my major short story for fiction writing class, while he cooks us a nice anniversary dinner.

I am so very happy with this man. He treats me right, and I am so in love with him!
kevyn: (buccaneer boots)
( Feb. 20th, 2008 03:56 am)
It's 4 a.m.
And I wake up

It's only been
Ten hours
Since he laid besides me
But I already miss him.

I hug myself tightly
Remembering how he looked
Sprawled on my bed
Just ten hours ago.

My body recalls
Sharing his bed
Late at night, darkness
Naked bodies spooning
Legs intertwined
My arm draped across
His furry belly
My face buried in his neck.

I breathe in his scent
And ask him a question
He's already asleep
And he mumbles an incoherent answer
I smile, content, in My Captain's arms.

I have spent my whole life
Sleeping alone
And now...

...I don't want to.
I love taking Cpt. Dylan on geeky dates. (Two weeks ago I took him to the planetarium.) Tonight, he came over after work, and after dinner together at the VU Commons, we went to the President's Distinguished Lecture Series at the WWU PAC.

The lecturer was Stephen Prothero, an academic who studies religion, and especially American religion. He was making the case (rather persuasively) that religious illiteracy is a problem in the United States, and that both biblical studies and comparative world religious should be mandatory subjects taught in schools. I tend to agree.

Probably the most intriguing thing he said was (paraphrasing): Islam is not a religion of Peace. It's a religion of War AND Peace. So is Christianity. So is Hinduism. All religions that stick around a long time have to be able to equip people to deal with war, and also equip them to deal with peace.

He also made the argument that environmentalism can be seen as an emergent religion -- that the zealotry that drives some environmentalists (think Earth First!) are the same impulses that drive religious devotion.

I enjoyed it, and had a wonderful time with Dylan. Yes, I take my boyfriend on dates to lectures. I am such a geek!
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( Jan. 27th, 2008 11:46 am)

It started Thursday night with a cough, and a runny nose that kept draining into my chest. Then I started having zero appetite, massive gas (burping and farting), aches and pains, headache. By Friday night I was having chills, night sweats, diarrhea, and waking up to go to the bathroom every hour.

Been drinking lots and lots of water and taking Comtrex and Acetaminophen.

Dylan took care of me Friday and Saturday. What a wonderful boyfriend!

I think the worst is behind me, and have come home to sleep in my own bed, but I am still very weak. Hurts to smoke, so I got patches and straws to keep the nicotine monkey at bay.

I think this is the flu.

And to make things worse, it's cold and gray and wet and snowy outside.

Will update later. Right now, I'm going back to bed.

2008.01.06 Ship In A Bottle
Originally uploaded by kevynjacobs
[ profile] porthos74 gave me a glass ship in a bottle after our 5th date last weekend. He hid it in my laundry bag! I didn't discover it until I got home and unpacked. It included a note which read, "Remember my boy, you never sail alone!"

I'm not usually one for tchotchkes, but this is precious! I love glass, I love ships in bottles, and of course, it's very symbolic of our relationship.

We started dating 21 days ago, and every day he surprises me with new depths!
kevyn: (Default)
( Jan. 1st, 2008 07:45 pm)
Mmmmmm. I am seriously in like with [ profile] porthos74.

Went over to his place Saturday after Faerie Coffee.
Last night we played pool, he made me dinner, then we walked arm in arm on the Boulevard Park promenade (which we had to ourselves) and kissed under the stars. Went to a party at Alex Poo's (seriously, great party, dude ;-) ) then back to Capt. Dylan's (he calls me his "First Mate" ... and "Pet Giant") and played pool (I lost - a LOT!). He taught me how to play 9-ball (Gotta love a game that favours slop shots). Held each other at the stroke of midnight on his back porch watching fireworks through the trees, and kissed.

Whoa, this is happening fast.

Happy 2008!

Went to brunch this morning, and shopping. I talked and talked and talked, and I know I didn't listen enough but I just wanted to lay my soul bare before this guy (I promise to listen more next date).
It felt very comfortable, very peaceful. He is such a funny guy, and he gets my jokes and obscure references (Would you like Skinny & Sweet?). Only 33, that's 6 years younger than me, but he knows he's a Gen-Xer, and we're on the same wavelength a lot. It's actually a little scary. He kept saying today that he keeps forgetting that we've only been dating a week.

I know exactly what he means.

Today I took him out for lunch, and then back to his place to play pool, and then out to see Sweeney Todd (freaked me out -- gory).

Wayne just came over, in tears. Gotta go.
Wow... that was like, really nice!

I had a lunch date today, with [ profile] porthos74.

Lunch turned into spending 11 hours with him -- I really enjoyed his company.

He walked in to the restaurant wearing a pair of sexy-as-all-hell buccaneer's boots and a pea coat. He has long flowing locks, and a beard. Looks kind of like a pirate. Hot hot hot!

Over lunch at Jalapenos, we talked and laughed, and found we have a lot in common. It really was a fun first date. And he has a sexy accent, too - a touch of Welsh English (his family came from Wales, though he was born and raised in Pennsylvania).

After lunch, we went walking up on Sehome hill. Then I gave him the tour of Fairhaven College and the Outback. Then we went back to my place and drank a bottle of wine, and talked. Then we we drove over to James St. Estates, to look at all the pretty Xmas lights. Then to his place, where we had dinner, then played pool (he has a billiard table in his apartment). Then we watched a movie together ("Clue").

It was all very comfortable, very nice.

After ten hours together, we finally kissed. Bliss.

Then he took me home. We're taking this slow. I'm glad.

I like this guy!
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( Dec. 21st, 2007 05:15 pm)
I have a lunch date on Sunday!


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