My knees are starting to bother me again, seriously. I almost cannot straighten the left one out all the way, and am walking with a slight limp again.

I started off the day by taking the bus down to Haggen to go grocery shopping. After I got back, I rested a while, then went downtown to see my therapist at Interfaith. We talked about how I've been feeling really tired lately, and how I thought that quitting smoking and the anemia may be factors, and he suggested something I hadn't considered: I recently upped my dose of Abilify from 5mg to 10mg, and tiredness is a known side effect of the drug. Oho! I'll certainly be talking about this with my prescriber later this week!

While at the therapist's office, I stepped on the scale: 416 lbs. That's up 4 lbs from my previous highest. No doubt quitting smoking is a factor, but no wonder I feel so bad, I've gained weight!

I also went to the podiatrist to have my new orthotics checked out. mostly, they seem to be doing pretty good, so I don't need to go back unless I have any further problems with my feet and ankles.

This journal entry also marks my first regular entry on Dreamwidth, crossposting to LiveJournal. I am still trying to decide if I should fully migrate over there. So far, I like what I see, though I am annoyed that they, too, have a 1000 maximum on tags.
kevyn: (Default)
( Apr. 23rd, 2009 03:45 pm)
I went to F.L.A.R.E. class this afternoon, and then on to the foot doctor to pick up my new custom-made orthotics. As soon as I put them on, I knew they were going to be a big relief for my feet and knees. I'm already walking better than I have in months!
kevyn: (Default)
( Mar. 17th, 2009 01:22 pm)
I had an appointment with a podiatrist this morning (Dr. Michael Sherwin @ Family Foot Care) to look at my feet. He examined them, took x-rays, and concurred that I need new orthodics. I have an appointment for April 10 to get that done.

He also found that, at some point in the past, I broke one of the metatarsal bones in my left foot, which has healed since. I have no memory of this ever happening, but I've had so much foot pain in my life that it's possible I didn't recognize it as a break at the time, and thought it was gout, plantar fasciitis, or the excessive pronation that I do when I walk.

He also found a pinched nerve in the middle of my right foot, and gave me a cortizone injection in the foot (ouch) and told me to stay off my feet for the next couple of days. Which means I can't go to the food bank like I had planned tomorrow afternoon.

Can anyone go to the store for me to get some groceries and cigarettes in the meantime?
kevyn: (depressed)
( Feb. 5th, 2009 04:22 pm)
So, today is the third consecutive day that I haven't been able to leave the apartment, because of my swollen foot and ankle. One thing is very clear -- my next apartment MUST be a ground floor one, because if these kinds of attacks continue to get worse as I age, and my joints continue to degenerate, then I am going to find myself more and more trapped in the apartment, unable to navigate the flight of stairs. I can't even do simple household tasks that require going down the stairs right now, like taking out the garbage and recycling, or checking the mail.

I've eaten no meat protein today, and have finished the last of my black cherry juice. I need to get someone to go to the store for me again.

And I still don't have any painkillers, and I don't know who to ask for help?

Each day that goes by, I am giving up more and more, surrendering to this life, a shut-in invalid. I am going to be forced to file for Social Security, and all of the things that means to my future.

Part of me believes that I deserve no better.

OK, I got to remember to take my antidepressants every day... I can tell I'm slipping after a couple of days.
One of the reasons I have been having so much difficulty in finding a job is that the joint problems I have in my knees, ankles and feet limit the kinds of jobs I can take. Most of the readily available menial jobs in Bellingham -- fast food, retail, custodial, day labour -- are not jobs that I can do, because they require standing for long periods of time, and walking, bending and squatting a lot. I'm capable of working desk jobs -- within the limits of my mental health issues -- but those jobs are very hard to come by in the current job market. As I am fond of saying, I graduated from university at the end of August, just in time for the economy to tank.
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