A depressing day

[kevyn]

I've been more depressed than normal all day. Low energy, sad mood, more self-destructive thoughts than normal.

I made it to DVR class today, Thanks to Zach giving me a ride, but I was having a hard time getting into the swing of things. We did an exercise where we were supposed to list something we wanted to change in our lives (a change which we really wanted, not that others wanted us to make, and was realistic). I couldn't come up with anything that I felt especially motivated to change right now.

Then we worked on affirmations. The best I could come up with is "I am glad to be alive," to which my inner voice said, "but you know that's not really true."

*sigh*

It's half past 3 in the afternoon, and I think I am going to go to bed now.

Comments

[kennapea.livejournal.com]

i'm sorry you had a hard day, but i am glad you made it.
get some rest.

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[bluebear2.livejournal.com]

It's important to take care of yourself. I know you sometimes wonder why you're doing it or bothering but that feeling is an illusion. There is something more to you and why you're here and it isn't obvious what that is. (Like all of us.)
Hugs.

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

[man-of-snows.livejournal.com]

I will send tiny, litter trained unicorns to sprinkle your room with glitter and whisper French into your ear as you sleep.

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

Unicorns? Seulement les vierges peuvent voir des unicorns. Et je ne suis pas un vierge!

Besides, something was whispering Japanese into my ear as I slept. I think you missed by a continent or two.

[kcfairy.livejournal.com]

if you wait it all changes. the only constant is change. sometimes it is hard to wait. looks like you have some nice friends who care.

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

>if you wait it all changes.
That's my #1 coping skill for dealing with depression, and why I don't make suicide attempts any more. I just wait. Wait the storm out. It passes...

> looks like you have some nice friends who care.
Why, yes I do. Starting with YOU.

[kcfairy.livejournal.com]

Pikachu!!! Pika? Pika???

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

Topekachu!! Topeka? Topeka???