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( Nov. 7th, 2007 11:14 pm)
Today was a somewhat better day. My mood wasn't quite as dark and hopeless today as yesterday. We've been talking about goal-setting in DVR Workstrides class. I've even been thinking about restarting the process of going back to school.

Today was capped off with a surprise visit by Whoretense! At 5pm, there came a knock on my door... helloooo! Whoretense had come to take me to the monthly 1st Wednesday Gay Men's Potluck. What a wonderful surprise! We had a very nice time. The only downside was that Rick was there, and he seemed very... distant to me. No surprise, considering we'd broken up a couple of weeks back. But I know it was the right thing to do.
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( Nov. 6th, 2007 03:37 pm)
I've been more depressed than normal all day. Low energy, sad mood, more self-destructive thoughts than normal.

I made it to DVR class today, Thanks to Zach giving me a ride, but I was having a hard time getting into the swing of things. We did an exercise where we were supposed to list something we wanted to change in our lives (a change which we really wanted, not that others wanted us to make, and was realistic). I couldn't come up with anything that I felt especially motivated to change right now.

Then we worked on affirmations. The best I could come up with is "I am glad to be alive," to which my inner voice said, "but you know that's not really true."

*sigh*

It's half past 3 in the afternoon, and I think I am going to go to bed now.
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