Hagrid is in the House!

OK Universe, my Pagan friends say this works, so I'm putting my needs out to you. *

I have a lot of talents, a lot of education, and a lot of skills to offer the human race, and right now, I feel like the resources I offer are being totally wasted. It's been a month since I graduated from University. No one is taking advantage of what I have to offer, and my time here is running out.

This is what I need RIGHT NOW: A job, or some other means to pay my rent. Something short-term, just to keep me from being evicted from my apartment (this is a real danger for me right now).

Me being homeless would be a total waste of what I have to offer the world.

Longer term, I need a career, preferably employment in Canada (British Columbia or Yukon), meaningful work where I can make a positive difference in the world, doing satisfying work that I can believe in.

That's really not too much to ask, is it?

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* Yes, teledildonix, I can hear you now: I'm engaging in "Magical Thinking." But think of this as an empirical test. And I've clearly articulated my needs, and a plan, and posted it on the WWW -- all clearly beneficial acts on my part.

And, Stranger things have happened.

I've been influenced a lot lately by the thinking of the New Atheists, and am beginning to question some of my beliefs. My spirituality continues to grow and evolve, and while this can be disconcerting -- and even troubling at points when it comes to fitting in with old communities, like the neopagans and Radical Faeries -- it does show me that I am still growing as a human being.

So I've decided to take a snapshot of where my thinking is right now.

Here is what I believe right at this moment:

* I doubt (though I cannot disprove) the existence of the monotheistic creator gods. (Some would label me a "Weak Atheist" for this, others an agnostic. I'm fine with either label.)

* I believe that Monotheism is probably maladaptive for our survival as a species.

* I suspect that whoever Jesus was as a historical figure, he probably wasn't much like the man depicted in the gospels, which appear to me to be mappings of stories, myths and deities of the Roman world onto a Jewish mystery cult. He may not have existed at all.

* I doubt that there is an afterlife. When you die, you're Recycled, Remembered, Reproduced and Ramified, but that's probably about it. (Recycled through the environment, Remembered by those who knew you and loved you, Reproduced in your descendants, and Ramified in that we have Ramifications in how we changed the world by our presence and actions.)

* I believe the human need for spirituality is real. It's the expression of it that is problematic.

* I believe there is still a great deal about the workings of the Universe we still don't understand, because we are limited. We're limited by our perceptions, by our experiences, by our place in the Universe, and by the knowledge our predecessors and culture gave to us.

* I believe that gods and goddesses in the neopagan sense are metaphors, ways of interacting with aspects of the universe, but that they don't have any objective or incarnate existence. They're more like archetypes than actual beings.

* I am agnostic on the idea of supernatural entities and forces -- I just don't know if they exist or not.

* I believe I am an animal. A very smart animal to be sure, a remarkable primate, and a very advanced monkey, but an animal nonetheless. We are probably not more important than the other animals we share the Earth with, including the food we eat.

* I believe the Earth is a self-regulating living organism. (This known as the Gaia Theory.) This is not to say that, as an organism, it has any purpose, or self-direction, but it definitely appears to be alive. I also believe that Earth must be revered and cared for if we are to survive. I have no knowledge as to whether or not the Earth is conscious, though -- except to say that I, as part of Earth, am conscious.

* I know The Universe is, at least in part, alive and conscious. I am alive and conscious, and since I am part of The Universe, then at least this part of the Universe is unquestionably alive and conscious. And if the Earth is alive, and part of The Universe, then that part of The Universe is alive as well.

* I believe that science, and logic, are the best tools we have right now for understanding The Universe. I believe that Emotion, Spirituality, Intuition, Perception and Experience are more limited than science and logic -- they are too easily wrong, and shaped by our prejudices and limitations.

(All beliefs are subject to change as I continue to explore, think, and grow.)

So what am I? How should I label myself? Like clothes that I outgrew as a child, some of the labels that I used to wear seem ill-fitting. Am I still a Pagan? Am I an Atheist? Who am I?