The scene: Nate, the undertaker, is having dinner at a restaurant with his fiancée, Brenda.

BRENDA: How was your day?

NATE: Oh, it was weird. Buried that psychic woman's husband.
And she was still, like, talking to the guy.

BRENDA: Oh, that's sad.

NATE: Not for her. I mean, she really believed he was there, ya know?

BRENDA: Well, she has to say that, right? If she claims she's a psychic.

NATE: You don't think that that's possible? What about you saying that things happen that leave marks in people, in places, in time?

BRENDA: That's physics. Energy affecting matter. Talking to dead people is delusional.

NATE: So you definitely don't believe in any kind of life after death?

BRENDA: I think people live on through the people they love, and the things they do with their lives. If they manage to do things with their lives.

NATE: But that's it? That's it? That's all there is? There's nothing more? There's nothing, like, bigger?

BRENDA: Just energy.

NATE: But there isn't a plan--?

BRENDA: No, there is definitely no plan. Just survival. Should I have ordered the salmon?

NATE: Uh, I don't know. (back to the topic) How can you live like that? I mean, what if you found out you were going to die tomorrow?

BRENDA: I've been prepared to die tomorrow since I was six years old.

NATE: Really?

BRENDA: Yeah, pretty much. (changing topic) We never got butter.

NATE: Well, why since you were six?

BRENDA: Because I read a report on the effect nuclear war would have on the world, and it was pretty clear to me at that point that this was definitely gonna happen.

NATE: When you were six?

BRENDA: And I wake up every day pretty much surprised that, uh, everything is still here.

NATE: Well, I don't understand how you can live like that.

BRENDA: Well, I thought we all did.

From "Six Feet Under," episode "The Plan" (2002)
Written by Kate Robin




This scene really resonates with me. Brenda is the character I identify with the most on the show "Six Feet Under", and this exchange captures me so succinctly that I had to copy it. The only difference between me and Brenda here is that I was 10 or 11 when I reached the same conclusion she did… but I understand the fatalism totally.
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