On the verge

Phone disconnected
Attending classes but not registered
Looks like I won't get financial aid
Without fiancial aid I don't go to school
Without going to school, no graduation before 40
Without school, no antidepressants
I begin a downward spiral
I have no cigarettes and I am clawing my eyes out
No antidepressants left
Kicked off insurance
Giving up on my dream of going to Canada
As an atheist, nothing left for me in the Faeries
My feet hurt and I can't stay on my feet
I feel like giving up I feel like not trying