Day 5 of Fluoxetine: Increasing dose 20mg to 40mg

OK, I've now been on the Fluoxetine at 20mg a day for 5 days. So far, so good, with only a few instances of suicidal thoughts, bursts of rage, self-destructive behaviour and binge eating. Starting a new regimen of antidepressant meds can trigger all of these things in me, which has happened over the past 5 days. I actually was "stable" in my depression before starting the meds, and was warned by the prescribing P.A. that the early stages of taking this med could be rough. She was right.

Today I up the dose to 40mg, as prescribed. It could be a roller coaster ride for the next few days, so be warned. Buckle your safety belts, please keep arms and legs inside the ride at all times, and enjoy your visit to Disneyland.

What I Fear...

 
I fear...
 ...atomic bombs...
   ...war for profit...
      ...world war three...
         ...nuclear winter...
            ...and the end of homo sapiens.

I fear...
 ...the end of oil...
   ...economic collapse...
      ...a new great depression...
         ...superfluous people...
            ...debtors prisons...
               ...and a return of slavery.

I fear...
 ...christian fundamentalists...
   ...zionistic jews...
      ...muslim extremists...
         ...patriotic americans...
            ...political zealots...
               ...and our new chinese masters.

I fear...
 ...the united states of fascism...
   ...declarations of martial law...
      ...suspension of civil liberties...
         ...no refuge in canada...
            ...blackwater gestapo...
               ...legalized torture...
                  ...summary executions...
                     ...disappearances...
                        ...and for-profit concentration camps.

And when I fear all that...
   ...is it any wonder...
      ...that dying in my sleep...
         ...of a massive heart attack...
            ...feels like a blessing...
               ...not to be feared...
                  ...but welcomed?

Missed DVR Workstrides class today

I didn't want to, but I missed DVR class today. The short and sweet reason: I'm broke, and don't have any gas in the car.