Unwilling to work.

[kevyn]

Unwilling to work. Unwilling to do the things necessary for survival in this culture. Who cares.

Comments

[pocketlama.livejournal.com]

Just where is that line between unwilling and unable? Serious good wishes for you. I've been working to get benefits such as food (decent), cash assistance (meager), and medical from DSHS. I'm hating every part of it! I hate hate hate having to tell each new person about what feels like personal shortcomings. I wish my leg would fall off or something so I could relax and admit to myself fully that I'm disabled.

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

> Just where is that line between unwilling and unable?

Dunno. I know I seem to be unable to hold my life together. I'm falling apart again. I've failed at living so many times that I'm unwilling to try any more. And I know I am afraid of hard work... I want to do as litle as possible, and I don't seem to care about the consequences. It's nihilism.

[pocketlama.livejournal.com]

But if your nihilism is part of your illness, that circles back and negates the unwilling bit again. Don't you think? I guess I just think it's important to make the distinction (at least in your own mind) between character flaws and diagnosis.

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

I'm not ill. I'm just worthless.

[that-dang-otter.livejournal.com]

Hm, well, this is not a pretty thing.

You just got an ADD diagnosis. Have you tried any treatments related to that? Are you getting any kind of counselling at all?

You're obviously not worthless. But something is quite askew here. Can't really offer many suggestions at this distance. But it looks very much like clinical depression, which can take a wide variety of forms.

I would encourage you to take action on that, because I don't think it can be overcome through sheer force of will. I'd say it needs professional intervention at this point; if that hasn't worked in the past, then you need another angle.

Good luck!

[pocketlama.livejournal.com]

Well in that case, off with your head! :-) **sweaty hugs**

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

RAR!

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

> You just got an ADD diagnosis. Have you tried any treatments related to that? Are you getting any kind of counselling at all?

Not now. The diagnosis was given at the same time my counseling benefits ran out.

> But it looks very much like clinical depression, which can take a wide variety of forms.
Yeah, it wouldn't be unheard of for me.

[pocketlama.livejournal.com]

"RAR!" Of course I would *never* do that to a small animal... *grin*