I miss my Captain.

[kevyn]

I sat in class today, trying to take notes, but my mind kept wandering back to Dylan.

I miss him so.

I want him. I NEED him.

But he doesn't want me.

I don't want to be a fool, throwing myself after someone who cannot truly appreciate what I have to offer.

That would be pathetic.

I suppose I should remember the old poem, about if you love someone, set them free. If they come back to you, they're yours. If not, they never were.

*sigh*

Comments

[phreddd.livejournal.com]

Breathe first, my man...

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

In... out... in... out...

[kennapea.livejournal.com]

i'm so sorry, hun.
btw, that kneecap busting offer is still on the table. =[

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

No, I love him. But thank you.

[kennapea.livejournal.com]

i know you do.
i really wish you weren't going through this. =[

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

Me too.

[man-of-snows.livejournal.com]

You looked surprisingly chipper today. I figured you would have a black cowl of doom wrapped around you, be soaking wet despite the sun and trailed by small black crows. I am glad I got to hug you twice. If you need more, just let me know.

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

I hide it well.

Actually, I was just happy I got my ass out of bed and went to school today.

Hugs are always appreciated.

[kadyg.livejournal.com]

I prefer "Living well is the best revenge". There is little more satisfying than running into someone who dumped you when you are happy and doing very well. As a matter of fact, they were holding you back.

Besides: if he doesn't want you, he doesn't get to have you. His loss.

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

That's all well and good... but I still feel like a part of me has been removed.

[kadyg.livejournal.com]

I know...you've been broken up for like, 10 minutes. Be good to yourself and give it some time.

[the-irreverend.livejournal.com]

I'm just catching up on several weeks of LJ, and I'm so, so sorry to hear about your Captain's decision. My heart hurts for you both. And I applaud you for not letting the breakup stop you from finishing school or managing your health.

I wish Mac and I could give you a long, long hug. Guess we will save it up for graduation, and maybe come up again soon after that. If there's anything we can do from afar, please let me know.

[the-irreverend.livejournal.com]

Oh, and I think he's an ass and an idiot to send you packing!

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

I agree!

[kevynjacobs.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

I'll survive. It hurts, but I'll survive.